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05 October 2012 @ 12:48 am
Monthly Mix :: September 2012 :: The New Road Meanders  

Homeward the new road meanders
Washed out the old road as to what did I bring

Twice today I found myself in love again
twice today I found myself in love again
Oh I love you more when you're gone and I can sleep again
I love you more
you've become the one I could still love when you are gone
and you've become the one I could still love when you are gone

And I said I know it well
That secret that we know that we don't know how to tell
I'm in love with your honor, I'm in love with your cheeks
What's that noise up the stairs, babe?
Is that Christmas morning creaks?

I know that you're an artist,
you're the hardest one to deal with.
Everything that you conceal
is revealed on your canvas.

You find all of your ugly meanings
in the things I find beautiful.
Do you see the fall is coming?
Come, I'm falling into you.

Then I feel you close
Feel you close like you wanted me to
Feel you close like you wanted me to
Believe in you

Rise to the top of the world, America
America, don't you cry
Lift me up
Give me strength to press on

So with the angst of a teenage band
Here's another song about a gender i'll never understand

If this is a rom-com
Kill the director

Love is a scene I render
When you catch me wide awake
Love's a dream you enter
Though I shake and shake and shake you
Love is the best endeavor
Waiting in the lion's mane

Well listen nothing fits and nothing rings a bell in my head
lighting up the fire and the city's painted blood red
Even though you're poison babe I wouldn't even hesitate
Just let it go, I just, I gotta get away now

And at once I knew I was not magnificent
Strayed above the highway aisle
Jagged vacant, thick without us
I could see for miles, miles, miles

Do what you like
You dont have to be nice
Just pour yourself a cup of coffee
Leave anytime you dont have to be right
You've gotta live the best you know how

And if you love well that should be enough
Instead it turns your joy int0 sorrow
And I can't breath with the dust of retreat
I'm choking on the fumes of my wayward back

I collect my moments
Into a correspondence
With a mightier power
Who just lacks my perspective
And who lacks my organics
And who covets my defects
And I'm downloaded daily
I am part of a composite

Are you taking sips of loneliness and mouthfuls more of grief?
'Cause I don't know just what I'm looking for
A town or a person, a painting, a face
A song on my stereo telling me good love is on the way
Oh me of such little faith

There's no sense in wondering what was meant or what will be in time
But time and time again, I think of you and hope you're doing fine
Apart and free
Just a ghost, how you're meant to be

It always takes me by surprise
how dark it gets this time of the year
And how apparent it all becomes
that you're not close, not even near

No matter how many times I tell myself
I have to be sincere
I have a hard time standing up
and facing those fears

How many times
Can I push it aside
Is it time I befriended all the ghosts of all the things that haunt me most
So that they leave me alone
Move on with my life
Be certain the steps of left and right don't fight the direction of upright

I'd rather forget and not slow down
Than gather regret for the things I can't change now
If I become what I can't accept
Resurrect the saint from within the wretch
Pour over me and wash my hands of it

Like the dead that walk before me therein
I can't believe that you ignore me, such a shame
I didn't come here to try to hurt you, you hurt me
I'll never sit back and say, "that'll do," I'm afraid.

Today I stood and walked away
I'm never coming back this way
I've got my things, I'm here to stay
I'll try to pull the night away

Homeward the new road meanders
Washed out the old road as to what did I bring
Flowers, a verse about springtime
Perchance in the treeline she's awaiting for me

Homeward these shoes worn to paper
Thin as the reason I left here so young
Homeward and what if I see her
There in the doorway I walked away from

I saw you in the background the other day
On a television see some story grey
You were sat on the steps of the new courthouse
Spinning that wheel, you said you'd show me how
You chased me through a carriage on a train
But I reached the next one before you came
And I pulled out the pin between yours and mine
I kept going, you got left behind

Because there's always that someone who'll be easier on your eye
So forget the politics of living alone and just dance til the morning light

Over and over they call us their friends
Can't we find something else to pretend?
Like nobody's won and we're safe at the end

In the darkness the film machine's spinning
So let's leave it on
We'll be out in the street
before anyone knows that we're gone

I am a hostage to my own humanity
Self-detained, and forced to live in this mess I've made
And all I'm asking is for You to do what You can with me
But I can't ask You to give what You already gave

Cause I've been housing all this doubt and insecurity
And I've been locked inside that house, all the while You hold the key
And I've been dying to get out, and that might be the death of me
And even though there's no way of knowing where to go
I promise I'm going

You can view the cover art here. It is included in the .zip.
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I'm not as exciting as my username_pizzazz on October 5th, 2012 03:35 pm (UTC)
thank you! lovely mix!
iamhunpike: 01iamshunpike on October 6th, 2012 02:59 am (UTC)
Aw wow, I'm glad to see you still post these...it's been two years since we were both kind of active in Narnia fandom (???), and I always thought that your dedication to making these really lovely mixes, because it made you happy, was just so cool. :))))) Also your love of Beauty and the Beast. ♥
I don't think I've listened to any kind of mix in a while, but I think I'll give this one a go. :)

And omg, while I love tumblr, I see LJ being so inactive while everyone (including me) flocks to tumblr...hope users can keep up with both, they're both great and for different reasons :B
The hero of the story: Ed/Skand Dazzles Mecaptain_sarah on October 6th, 2012 03:13 am (UTC)
Aw, thank you so much! Wow, I really miss the Narnia fandom. Especially narnia_dazzle! Sometimes I silently hope it'll become active again, but that is extremely doubtful. And yeah, LJ is becoming soooooo inactive. That's kind of why I started the Tumblr, so that *hopefully* people will still want to listen to them when LJ is dead. To me, LJ and Tumblr are for different purposes, and I don't know, I think it's harder to get to know people, especially a big group of people, on Tumblr. And it makes your journal posts (if anyone even really posts those on Tumblr anymore -- I know I don't...) less private. Ooooooooooh well. It was fun while it lasted.
iamhunpikeiamshunpike on October 6th, 2012 06:48 pm (UTC)
I do miss narnia_dazzle too.
But mm, I disagree there. While I know that a lot of LJ's users are becoming inactive, I don't want to say, "Well, all right, that's the end of the website, and yes, it was fun while it lasted." Different strokes for different folks I guess :P I just don't want to stop using LJ because people have moved sites: there are still a lot of people here, and I figure I'm staying - while using tumblr more for photos, music and liveblogging? And LJ for text posts, RL friends, and fanfiction, fanmixes, icons and so on.
So IDK. I agree with a lot of what you said, including about getting to know people on LJ vs. Tumblr, but still. :|
The hero of the storycaptain_sarah on October 6th, 2012 09:58 pm (UTC)
Oh no, I got it. I'm staying on LJ too, and I'll be continuing to post here, in other communities, etc. It's just a lot of fandoms (at least mine, anyway) have moved, and I'm sort of forced to move along with them, due to all the inactivity here. I'm not leaving LJ, it's just not the same as it once was.
ivmivivmiv on October 6th, 2012 04:54 am (UTC)
Thank you. I love your mixes
they're MINERALS, marie, jesus christkasiowy on October 6th, 2012 10:05 am (UTC)
Snagging this, thank you so much. :)
I had fun once and it was awfulvisiblemarket on October 6th, 2012 11:10 am (UTC)
This looks great!
Root and Shaw....and then they done sex!kinky_carter on October 6th, 2012 05:46 pm (UTC)
Downloading, thanks! :D
nit(ya): saved! → and love is a tired symphony.asweetdownfall on October 6th, 2012 06:02 pm (UTC)
This looks amazingggggggg. And I approve of the Regina + Only Son track. :D :D
'sup brendonmauvais_pli on October 6th, 2012 06:36 pm (UTC)
A lovely selection, happily snatching, thank you!
sarahnitro26 on October 7th, 2012 01:48 pm (UTC)
This looks great - thank you!! :)
redtapestryredtapestry on October 9th, 2012 02:05 am (UTC)
This looks so amazing, thank you!
aniloratka: Arashi {boys love}aniloratka on October 10th, 2012 10:56 pm (UTC)
thank you for this :)
A heart will always go one step too far: \=D - Conflicting emotionschickosaurusrex on October 13th, 2012 10:00 pm (UTC)
:( It was taken down...
The hero of the story: Paradise Piercaptain_sarah on October 14th, 2012 03:31 am (UTC)
That's odd. The link appears for me...
A heart will always go one step too far: Oh dearchickosaurusrex on October 14th, 2012 05:19 am (UTC)
When I click the .zip at the bottom the mediafire page says permission denied, and that the file cannot be distributed.
The hero of the storycaptain_sarah on October 14th, 2012 06:46 am (UTC)
I signed out of my mediafire account, and that's only when that message appears for me. Try right click + save on this link?
A heart will always go one step too farchickosaurusrex on October 16th, 2012 07:42 am (UTC)
No, it didn't work, but thank you for trying. :)
The Sound of Pantsrhymer_713 on October 16th, 2012 07:19 pm (UTC)

MF took down your mix. Ffffffff
mandamoo♥blackrosesredxo on October 30th, 2012 10:02 pm (UTC)
The link has been taken down :( I adore all of your playlists - you have a special folder in iTunes because of them! Hopefully I can get this month's playlist somehow? I loveeee Slow Club and Imagine Dragons <3
bloodtiesthirstbloodtiesthirst on January 13th, 2013 07:17 pm (UTC)
This link is down! What a shame!
I was really looking forward to more Charlene Kaye. I have all of your playlists for at least the last year and a half. I'd love to get this one too, whenever you have a chance.
The hero of the story: Do You Hear the People Sing?captain_sarah on January 15th, 2013 04:38 am (UTC)
Here you go :)

It makes me so happy to hear that you enjoy my mixes!
the indescribable moments of your lifetonights on January 14th, 2013 12:57 am (UTC)
I love your mixes and I would be really happy to get this one - can you upload it to Sendspace or elsewhere?
The hero of the story: Cosettecaptain_sarah on January 15th, 2013 04:39 am (UTC)